Okay so let’s get started.
I haven’t posted anything in about a year, but saying that, I only have one other post, which has probably been deleted by the time that you are reading this. So today I am writing about my complete lack of motivation, or maybe ideas. I’m not sure yet….
Over the last year, I have been working on a project for school. Each student in my year level has to do it, and the idea is to complete it mostly at home, as we’ve probably had a total of three hours on it at school. So the idea is that you set yourself a goal – I chose to write and illustrate my own children’s book – and then once you have achieved this goal, you write a report about your learning process and how you managed your time. Anyway, you probably don’t care about that.
At the moment, I am writing the report…. and struggling. the whole idea of being able to chose your own goal was that you would be interested in it, and you wouldn’t lose focus. But, like everything, my project got boring over time. I am struggling to work on this report for more than half an hour straight, as I have absolutely no motivation to complete it. It is due at the end of the week and I promised myself that I wouldn’t leave it until the last minute, but it is almost like I can’t help myself. The main thing that is keeping me going at the moment is the fact that I won’t have to stress about it anymore once it is completed, but even that isn’t really working.
Anyway, motivation. Where does it come from? Or more importantly, where can I get some? I am sure that if you are reading this, than you have probably felt the same way about this at some point in your life. But the truth is, I don’t just struggle with this from time to time, I never have motivation for anything. I will always have great ideas, and then as soon as I start on them, I will lose interest, and nothing ever gets completed. The exception to this of course is school work, I mean, I don’t lack motivation that much. Is there a way to acquire motivation?
Then there’s the other side of things. The reason why I haven’t posted anything on here for a year. A lack of ideas. I never have any ideas or inspiration for anything, and then when I do have an idea, all I can think about is what people will think of my ideas, and whether they can be seen in a negative way. I think that I worry too much. About a lot of things, but mainly the opinions that other people have or will have of me. Maybe the whole idea of ‘going with your gut’ isn’t such a bad idea after all. Maybe it’s the solution.
Now that I have written all of that, I am not sure what the idea of this post was. Maybe I just wanted to express how I felt about this topic. Or maybe I wanted support. I just hope that if you are reading this, it has helped you in some way, or made you feel better about the fact that you have trouble with this as well. No conclusions can be drawn from this piece, but I just feel like this needs to be out there, and I hope that maybe someone who reads this can help me to work towards a solution to this problem or I have helped them towards a solution of their own.
Thank you for reading this post, I really appreciate it….. Is that a thing? Do people normally thank their readers? I don’t know, but I appreciate the fact that people take time out of their busy lives to read a few words that I have written.